Just so you know..
Whole of August sucked pretty much, I don't deny it and since that it was over, I should welcome and embrace a new month with a whole new heart and a positive attitude towards life and everything else. August wasn't a month worth mentioning about, people feel sad because they just cannot let go of the stuffs which make them unhappy. Sometimes, human should just concentrate on what could go right instead of worrying about what could have gone wrong but nonetheless, sadness makes you treasure and appreciate the happy moments occurring in your life as well. Life is never perfect, you just have to make the best out of everything.

Everyone thinks I'm a happy girl.
Almost every single one of them, people around me. I had been going through a rather bumpy period for the past few weeks and I hope I get better and stronger after composing this entry. Yes, I know, I've neglected my blog - back to the same old reason... August was not a month worth sharing. I really want to thank my fellow friends around me, those who have been constantly asking me if I'm okay and showing their care & concern. I'm sorry if I didn't reply your texts for the past few days but deep down, I know you guys cared for me. Xx.

Fact #1: I am not a happy girl ALL THE TIME.
In fact, I get pretty upset easily when it comes to something I care and love a lot. Family and friends are my top priorities, I can neglect my studies when it comes to these 2 issues. Relationship is important in my life; kinship, friendship, boy-girl relationship. It's always hard to handle issues with human being, you have feelings for them and it may not be easy to deal with but as time comes, you will eventually know what you need to do for the better days ahead.

Fact #2: I do cry, which human being doesn't shed a tear?
Crying is a venting of anger, frustration, sadness and even happiness. It's good to cry sometimes, it will make you feel better (& tired) so you can sleep well at night excluding the nightmares that you would dream about if you keep thinking about the unhappy stuffs all the time. Anyway, the fact I cry sometimes because I want to see if my tears ducts are still functioning or not and this is to show, I MIGHT look tough on the outside but in fact, I've a pretty soft heart in me. Treat me better, please. HA, just kidding but yeah, there's always a soft spot in people for that important and special someone.

Fact #3: I worry & worry a lot, I think & I think too much.
You can't really blame me on that, girls are vulnerable. I always think for the worst (end up making myself upset) but why so? It's because I always like to imagine the worst scenario & hoping that I can bring myself to stand against it, probably think of a solution for it if it really hits me. It only works certain time & it sucks to know, sometimes... I just can't handle it if I drown myself in those negative thoughts. FYI, I worry, worry so much, it's always because I really put in effort in the stuffs/people I love, expecting high returns but afraid that things would just... Turn out to be the other way round. I only worry for important stuffs, if I worry, it's a good thing. It means I care, I really do because the moment I stop worrying, it means you do not deserve any time or effort from me, probably just an insignificant person.

Fact #4: It's good when things are being talked out.
No one likes living in grey areas, don't you think so too? If you ever lived in that part of life, you know how it feels. It keeps you dangling around, having no idea what to do nor how to progress on. Yet, somehow... Living in grey areas actually bring you the sweetest moment or pierce through your heart brutally, leaving you with the ultimate sadness. Ironic, isn't it? It's good to enjoy all these happy grey moments but tell yourself (myself), things will only be crystal clear when you set your heart and soul in clearing up. Do not drown yourself in it, otherwise you will find it difficult to swim back to the shore.

Fact #5: There's always a good side in everything.
I believe there's always a bright side in every negative incidents encountered. Just gotta change your view of perspective & you will be happy. So what if thing doesn't work out for now? It won't be like this forever - unless you do not bother in changing it. I mean, it's not going to rain forever, and even if it does, you would just have to dance in the rain and find joy in it. Right? Things will get better eventually, you can't change the beginning but you can compose a new ending. As long as both puts in effort, I guess nothing is impossible...

For these past few months, since the start of the year...
I've had many ups and downs. I enjoyed my time awesomely spent with some people, the crazy moments, impromptu meet-ups and etc... They are the happy memories I will always keep close to me, bad memories for me to learn more and make it better in the future for my life.

Nonetheless, it's not a bad year after all.
I met new friends, some friends who eventually clicked really well with me, some friends who made me as one of the special & important persons in their life, some whom I tried pushing away (not just once...) but still, fighting on hard to stay near by my side, tolerating my nonsense... Something, I couldn't ask for more...

Enjoy the moment, make the best out of everything.
I can't predict the future but I can make every step counts for now. I can make a better future with all the path I paved, in a positive attitude. Things will be good, it definitely will. What's more to say when the only things you need are just a little faith in life, a little trust in people, a little hope in everything and put in as much effort as possible if you want things to keep going? It's just the mind set, when I'm happy, people will be happy around me.

Thing could be worse but I'm not dead yet.