I know I need to think.
Just as I have no idea where to start with.

Seriously, hell lots of thoughts running in my mind now but I don't know what are they and how are they gonna relate to my life. Sometimes, I just feel so blank that I don't really feel like talking, replying SMS-es or going out 'cos I know if I were to go out, probably you would find me getting really anti-social which isn't good side. Guess what? I actually do not have the same courage of blogging out whatever shit thoughts I'm having now. It makes me feel naked as everyone could easily access to my blog and read everything. It does sound ironic, isn't it? I guess that's life and there's a saying of "change is the only constant thing". Everyone, everything changes and so do I. I just feel as if I wasted my poly life away and I have no idea what's holding me back in going back SPA for training, this actually sounds damn weird coming out from my mouth. I think, I need to sort out my thoughts; I just need some time and I will be fine.

Well, no point asking me what's wrong, what happened or whatever bullshit 'cos I, myself have no idea what's going on with me as well so just STFU, I don't need any comments, alright?

Goodnight.