You led me into this uncertainty and I have no idea what to do.

Please, lead me out to a way..

Look at the time!

It's 4.16am now and I just finished doing my CRS assignment and I have zero idea if I am doing the right way but at least, I did something and I've got something to show to the lecturer tomorrow! She's a nice lecturer anyway and I doubt I can wake up tomorrow for my 10am lesson. This is no good!

Alright, SP open house officially started today and my lecturer was late for more than half an hour and Eileen, Vernice and I ended up going to the open house to grab some candy floss and popcorn. This was when I saw him walked past with his another friend but well, I was at the bridge but he was at below and no doubt, he looked kinda smart in formal wear with a tie. :)

Apparently, I didn't pay much attention in class and waited for the legends to a feast at Olio Cafe located at Newton in some.. French school. Not bad, I got sponsored and I only spent $6 today for movie at Cineleisure after the dinner with the legends, which Muxing left home but Thomas came for the movie. We watch the.. I think, should be.. "Have you hear about the morgans?" It's a little dry and draggy, a little too much on talking but it has the laughing element in it and somehow, I can't quite stand the accent but well, still watchable.

Home sweet home after the movie and I came online, trying to do my assignment and chatted with peeps online. I am going to sleep after finish blogging and.. There's GC meeting tomorrow at 6pm!

After typing this, it's already 4.23am and I really should sleep soon.. I am having my eye check tomorrow and follow up, booking of PPCDL theory test and.. What else? Brushing up my 3 stars skills and then, prepare myself for the assessment. Last but not least, FINISH UP ALL THE GOING-TO-DUE PROJECTS AND ASSIGNMENTS!

P/S: Legends day out photos are uploaded in Facebook under Eugene's profile, so guys, you may take a look and there's a lot of my unglam pictures! >:(

I hope you enjoyed your birthday with us and I kept helping you to take photos, okie! Haha. All the best for your ppcdl theory test tomorrow! May you pass with just 1 try! Oh well, I wanted to put a photo of you taken just now but your gay partner, EUGENE chow isn't online so.. Next time, okie! Nice haircut anyway! :D

As mentioned, I overslept and missed my lessons today but I headed back to school for training and it was.. GREAT! I ran a total of 13km today but could have done better..

Next, we went to bathe and celebrated Thomas' 20th birthday in school. I heard that he has 30points for his NAPFA test which is.. OMG, SO AMAZING.. Haha! Jay chou's twin brother. LOL.

Lastly, we headed to Clementi for dinner and I almost died of hunger. My gastric just now was almost acting up 'cos my last meal was at around 11am. That was my breakfast and lunch then a watermelon juice from FC3 and training after that. Well, after dinner and we headed home separately. :)

Tomorrow's legends day out!
F&C, I am coming to eat you because it's FOC. Haha!

Alright, I am really kinda worn out today.. No idea why but gotta catch some sleep and settle my tutorials when I wake up.. Sigh..

Oh well, I slept pretty late last night, around 2.45am which ended up.. I overslept this morning and didn't go to school at all. First lesson was at 8am and jolly well, I woke up at 9.40am by a call from Vernice. Next lesson was 10am, how am I going to make it in time?

Solution: Just heck and wait for the training in the afternoon.

I bet they did more than just getting back the results and currently, I have passed 4 modules. I am still left with 1 paper to go and hopefully, I will be able to pass all. Revising the tests right after a full marathon and using only the MST week to mug.. If I could pass everything, it would be more than enough. Bad results? No choice, blame myself.

I wouldn't mind going to school early for training but the problem is, there's no more clubhouse for me to even slack and jokes with the legends. Damn it, so I'd rather stay at home, at least I can online and do craps that I like.

Oh, the dumb Dove - Straight and silky or whatever shit therapy shampoo is like making my hair so stiff. It somehow helps me to gel my hair which I DO NOT LIKE IT AT ALL. I feel so uneasy with my hair now but it's okie.. I am gonna tie my hair for training as well. :) No one has replied to my SMS, how am I supposed to go school now. Nowhere to slack!

Anyway! I can't wait for weekends. All the weekends. WHY?

LOOK HERE.
I AM PACKED WITH SPA ACTIVITIES!

Kayaking & Ubin recce this Saturday & Sunday.
Graduation Camp for juniors next weekend.
Pengarang recce, if possible.. The week after next.

Then, there are events coming up.
Pengarang Cycling Expedition.
Handover for the 26th batch.
Stong, FO Camp 10/11, 25th batch GRADUATION TRIP.

I'm glad, I am packed with so many stuffs and I really don't mind.. having expedition every weekends. Leisure round ubin, cycling, trekking.. Anything! Bestest days of my life, it would be. :)

It is meaningless to stop your current activities because of me. What's the point? If you like your activities then just go for it unless you feel like seeing me would make you feel worst. Yes, I don't even care now 'cos I have no idea what should I do. What's more can I do? I can do nothing, neither you can do anything.

I see no point stopping all the activities because mostly it concerns about me. Take a look at your future, how many more months left before you are officially graduated? Activities are mostly bound with SPA, I am not even significant enough for you to even revamp all the on-going activities you are going to have.

Not even friends to be?
Then I can fully understand why you wanna stop all activities if not, I see no point doing it. Even if I am a pebble that would cause you to stop all the activities then hello, please wake up. I am just a tiny stone, there's nothing much I could do any harm to you so, just stand up and continue all the things you wanted to achieve. Not that because of me, you would fall greatly. I am not as powerful enough to even do it.

Think about it.

2 - 1 = 1.
1 is not equivalent to 2 so it's 1.

If there is another 1, then it would be 1 + 1 and definitely, the answer will be 2. Ask me what am I talking about, I can tell you.. I have no exact idea as well.

I've been sleeping really late at night, I am deprived from sleep and really very tired each time I go to school and I almost skipped the first lesson today but I DIDN'T. In fact, I went to school.. For attendance only and most of the students, including the buddy class were either sleeping, if not.. It would be using the laptop for some other stuffs.

What I did throughout the 3 hours lecture + tutorial was.. Online using iPod Touch, listening to songs, falling asleep, doing law tutorial. Lecturer didn't even bother about us cos he, himself.. Knows that the module really sucks and he teaches for the sake of teaching only.

Anyway, my results are not good.
Marathon on just 1 day before the test day, revising only on the MST week itself.. How much can I complain when I could pass my paper? Haha. Well, I could sense that.. I am gonna fail Construction paper, purely because.. I anyhow did the calculation question which worth 20 marks. Good. Game.

Alright, might be heading out to meet legends for dinner at town later on, shall see what's the plan 'cos currently, I am waiting for my laundry to be done and my brother is asking me out for late lunch plus movie. Woohoo.. I am so wanted by a lot of people but oh well, sometimes some things just suck big time.

Shit, I think I might be putting aeroplane to the legends from SPA. Damn it, but I wanted to watch Avatar before it is down. Ah!!!!

OKIE, CONCLUSION IS, I AM GOING TO WATCH MOVIE WITH MY BROTHER AND DINNER WITH HIM. SORRY TO SPA LEGENDS. :(

NO WORRIES, WE ARE GONNA MEET TOMORROW AND THURSDAY. THURSDAY IS THE LEGENDS DAY OUT FOR MOVIE. OKIE? <3

Wait lor wait. Just wait only.
Wait for rainbow after rain.

WAIT.

Everyone thinks I never needed anyone la.
Lagi best, I am like a god. Woohoo.

Going too straightforward so I hope everyone goes really frank with me too.
If there's something bothering you then just say it out, if not I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND.

Space to breathe, time to think.
I am not unreasonable, after I've said my piece, I give you time to react and talk to me soon. Tell me what should I do for my next movement. Thank you very much.

I am having a bloody headache for sleeping at 5.30am last night, I mean.. This morning and I have yet to find article for my Law assignment which is due on Monday. FUCKED up course.

Yes or No.
Is it so difficult?

CONFIRMATION IS BADLY NEEDED.
I would work it out with you, tell me, what's the problem.

To all year 3 SPA peeps,
This year when you guys graduate with the SP gown, I wanna take photo with each and every one of you so.. Please update me with the respective graduation dates you guys have!

To all year 2 SPA peeps,
Continue working hard academically and also, physically! Let's soar high in our personal studies as well as, maintaining the spirit in SPA! The legendary club in SP. Haha!

To all year 1 SPA peeps,
You guys are gonna get a title for yourself in the club soon, so just continue your passion in it and hopefully, seeing each and everyone of you being able to undertake all the different tasks! :)

To everyone on earth,
Stay happy and do things that leave you with no regrets!

HAPPY 2010 TO EVERYONE!