Why lead a stressful life, when you can enjoy it?

True enough, actions speak louder than words and it's difficult to imply the actions in reality. That's how I felt. This would be some serious thoughts thrashing post. I might not be posting properly since I think.. My thoughts would jump here and there. Try to be with me, eh? :)

I felt that I am giving redundant stress to myself.
Even in this holidays, I can feel the stress in me which I've no idea why. Although I may not seem to be working, but I feel that I am working though. Contradicting enough. I am trying to delay everything so I could breathe and forget the stress. In fact, I would say it's escaping. I tried not to care but stress hits me whenever I am bathing. Why? When you are having your shower, you would be alone. True? Then, I would have thoughts running through my mind and I would start thinking that whatever I've done was all in a wrong decision. This beats me, I have no idea why. From the start of everything, I don't think I make any right choices. Nothing brings me forward. Agree?

I felt that I am heading to nowhere. (As mentioned above)
I have got no plans for my future. The only thing I can think of would be hoping to get into any local university. Other than that, I have no idea where my life is heading. I am practically just wasting my life away. No aims, no plan. Time to really wake up and start thinking, nj.

I felt that I am neglecting my family in Malaysia.
Well, I've planned to head back on the last week of my holidays but it still pretty far away. Next Sunday, I would be heading off to Stong for 4D3N and then, follow up by Datuk on the 9th - 11th October. Some serious time planning need to be done, nj.

I felt that I am spending money like running tap water.
Camps, trips, courses are all money sucker. Tomorrow there would be a 2 stars kayaking course registration and I am still hesitating if I should register as well. Why? It's an opportunity, why let it go? Next, it equips me with more certs which may be able to be useful for my life in the future. Lastly, it needs money. MONEY. Time to lie low and stop so many activities, nj.

I felt that I am having a hard time this year.
Schedule for this year is pretty tight. Every little things, regardless in SPA or in my life, it seems like all are being lined up events by events. You guys take a step back and see, how SPA conducted training last year and this year. We were given more time allowance last year as compared to this year when everything clashes with us. Limited workforce, overflowing of events/trainings. There's a need for a proper training schedules with available workforce. Otherwise, committees' holidays would definitely be burnt and it is going to be 2 months, w/o an outing for the committees. Did you guys realise about it?

Alright, I guess all the problems lie in me.
If I manage my time well, redundant stress would not arise in me, agree?
If I manage my time well, I wouldn't be thrashing all these thoughts here, agree?
If I manage my time well, I wouldn't neglect anyone in my life, agree?
If I know what is my aim, I would have made the correct choices in life, agree?

In short,
I need some serious reflection on myself.
I need to be more organized in terms of time planning.
I need to be more understanding in everyone around me.

Such a lengthy post, I guess I am done with my thoughts-thrashing.

Good night, lovelies.

Xoxo,
annjay.

It's time to blog.
It had been a week since I last posted.

This would be a lengthy post, eh.
Alright, let's talk about SIKE 09/10.

I guess the whole expedition was carried out smoothly except for some hiccups here and there. True enough, I am not very experienced into sea-related things but I did learn a lot from it. Committees were all very helpful, senior committees also guided me along for the 2nd day trip to Pulau Hantu. Greatly appreciated. :)

Last day was the best, at least journey back to Poly Marina was rather smooth, they took only 2 - 3 hours to reach the destination. Everything was going along with us, slight drizzling and there wasn't any anti-current for us. Although early in the morning, there were thunders and showers but it toned down.

Thanks to all ICs for carrying out their task well. Especially to Food ICs, they gotta wake up extra early to prepare food for the Muslim since they are having their fasting month. Whatever it is, a BIG thank you to everyone who made SIKE happen.

Everyone was exhausted after SIKE, all are badly sunburnt and was drenched as well. Take good care and don't fall sick during holidays! It's meant for enjoyment. :D

Now, let's talk about yesterday.
Finally, I replenished my sleep.. I only managed to stay awake until 9.40pm at night and slept all the way to 12pm yesterday.

Next, I went out and watched movies. Not as hilarious as I expected. No laughing gas in me, I think. Finally, I caught some TV programmes after so long and slacked all the way until around 12am and headed back home. I felt great, even though nothing much was done. :)

As for today,
I woke up and Zhuxin's friend came over. Lunch was bought with bubble tea by Zhuxin. HAHA. Thanks, babe. Xoxo. Next, I went to bathe and started doing some nonsense stuffs only..

Thanks for the delivery of donuts too, didn't expect to be delivered right at my doorstep. Hugs and kisses. :)

I guess I am done with blogging and I am such a loner for this holidays. Friends are in ITP and they are suffering as told by a few. I suffered few months back and I understand how they are feeling now but well, that's parts and parcels of life.

Okie, I am gonna start doing accounts for my SIKE. HAHA.
Whatever it is. That's all for today.

Xoxo,
annjay.

Nightmare is over for today.

EC & MR really sucked pretty much and I greatly feel that I've indeed flunked it badly. I repeat, B-A-D-L-Y. Damn it. Whatever, it's over. No point crying over spilled milk. Oh well..

I am looking forward to 11.10am on Thursday. This would officially marks my freedom for 6 long weeks. COOL. Anyway, I hope SIKE will be a fun and exciting expedition for the participants as well. Most importantly, I hope everything goes smoothly for this whole week, till the end of the expedition. Lady luck, please be with me.

Anyway, I went back to my secondary school yesterday.
I thought I would be catching up with some old friends but sadly, I didn't and only enjoyed the short concert the TEACHERS PUT UP. Surprisingly, it should be the students, eh? Well, due to the fact of H1N1 virus, performance by students were voided off and thus, teachers had to do the job.

Alright, concert was kind of boring - as usual. I guess the most funniest part of the concert was when few of the female teachers danced 'Nobody' this song. HAHA. Not bad, they looked cute with the hot pink dressing. Mr Tay was still very friendly, he offered the ex-students the seats at the back together with the current teachers to watch the concert. :)

I still remember, last year, friends of my batch were still calling me asking me to go to school early for meet ups, but in the end, I was terribly overslept and only reached school at around 11am or so. That was when everyone started leaving the school alr. This year, I reached school at around 9am or earlier and none actually went back. DAMN IT. Ah, never mind. I still get to catch up with some of my teachers anyway. :)

Despite not going back primary school this year, I still texted my former Chinese teacher and wished her happy teachers' day though. :D

Alright, time to date with my notes again. Damn it. I hope it is easier to memorise this time round. Since the module is called.. PR & Marketing. Let's pray, common sense makes wonder. ;)

Good night, lovelies.

Xoxo,
annjay.

Doubtless,

I am going insane like seriously. I have no idea what made me so stressed and I really need some peace. God.

Worst to worst solution:
I might head over to school to study and stay overnight.

I have to calm down and take a deep breath.
I can't concentrate; purely memorizing really kills.

This module is not totally common sense usable. O.M.G
Fuck it.

Bye.